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I woke up this morning and kind of broke down and started crying. It's no one's fault, really, and I did get to spend some time with Jevne last night, but. I kind of reall, desperately had wanted to spend some time with my friends this weekend and just through timing and everything I didn't and I feel like shit and have to go back out to Lac du Bonnet tonight to spend another 5 days doing a job that I'm no longer confident I can get done, without seeing any friends or getting that kind of support that your best friends give you just by being there. It's no one's fault, and I don't want to make anyone feel bad about it or anything. I just... this is going to sound really dumb, but I wish I could do my job while staying in the city, but obviously I can't. AUGH.

And the thing is, no, I actually can do this job. I'm still not really sure where this sudden lack of self-confidence is coming from, probably a combination of lack of sleep (even though I'm getting enough, it's not really restful), having to confront some family and personal issues, maybe crazy-making hormones, and the heat. UGH.

Okay, less whiny-whiny and more pictures: ( a family portrait and current favourite photo of myself )