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Productive morning; there's a lot going on right now, and I'm starting to panic, but it is forward movement, and that has to be good, so. Yay.
The guy from Lac du Bonnet called, and my job out there starts June 16th. This means that the driving test had to be made right away, and much earlier than originally planned, so: May 29th, 1:15 PM. I'm going to be practising a lot in the next few days, and if I don't feel ready by Wednesday, I'll call and reschedule. Good news: if I fail the road test, I can go again the next day because I'm not in the graduated licensing progra, (they'd need to wait 2 weeks, time which I do not have.)
Also, I'll be meeting with the guys from the province and Lac du Bonnet again, signing contracts and figuring shit out. You guys, I really don't want to drive out there every day. I hope I can live with my great aunt out there, or maybe in Pinewa and drive a shorter distance or something. Also, I need to review pretty much everything about the project and refamiliarize myself with Excel or some other program because what if I get out there and do all this work and then fuck up and can't actually input it into the computer? FAILBOT, augh.
Also, I still need to find time to look for a suit jacket and dress pants for ceremonies and stuff. I hate this part, especially at this season because everything is short sleeve/3/4 length sleeves on jackets and I need something kind of formal-ish? IDEK anymore. *FLAIL*
And I'm still recovering from last night, because I read The Lines You Amend by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
harrietvane in her kidfic adoption 'verse and it totally broke me emotionally and put everything back together even better than it was before and last night when I finished reading it around 1 am I was a big snotty sobbing wreck who couldn't stop smiling. It was the perfect thing for me to read last night and over the next few weeks which are going to be crazy and stressful and emotionally challenging, I'm going to reread it and take a lot of the lessons from it: namely, you can't hide from your problems until things go away, because everything else piles up and it's just easier to deal with shit. This is an important lesson I'm trying to practise, because lord knows I will usually try to run and hide instead of dealing with things.
Other things: Novillero is doing a show this Friday at the Graffitti Gallery. Would anybody be interested in going with me? I really don't have the finances to go, but I'm thinking of treating myself for the whole moving forward thing. Also, Novillero. I haven't seen them for a while, and I'm kind of jonesing (things that worry me: doors open at 9 and it goes until like, 2 or something? and I'm helping out at a garage sale that weekend starting friday morning, so I may be exhausted? and i'll have to take cash in case of an emergency cab? and what the hell should I wear? i've never been to the graffiti galler, what's it like? etc. etc. etc.) Why can't I ever relax and just enjoy stuff like this?
The guy from Lac du Bonnet called, and my job out there starts June 16th. This means that the driving test had to be made right away, and much earlier than originally planned, so: May 29th, 1:15 PM. I'm going to be practising a lot in the next few days, and if I don't feel ready by Wednesday, I'll call and reschedule. Good news: if I fail the road test, I can go again the next day because I'm not in the graduated licensing progra, (they'd need to wait 2 weeks, time which I do not have.)
Also, I'll be meeting with the guys from the province and Lac du Bonnet again, signing contracts and figuring shit out. You guys, I really don't want to drive out there every day. I hope I can live with my great aunt out there, or maybe in Pinewa and drive a shorter distance or something. Also, I need to review pretty much everything about the project and refamiliarize myself with Excel or some other program because what if I get out there and do all this work and then fuck up and can't actually input it into the computer? FAILBOT, augh.
Also, I still need to find time to look for a suit jacket and dress pants for ceremonies and stuff. I hate this part, especially at this season because everything is short sleeve/3/4 length sleeves on jackets and I need something kind of formal-ish? IDEK anymore. *FLAIL*
And I'm still recovering from last night, because I read The Lines You Amend by
harrietvane in her kidfic adoption 'verse and it totally broke me emotionally and put everything back together even better than it was before and last night when I finished reading it around 1 am I was a big snotty sobbing wreck who couldn't stop smiling. It was the perfect thing for me to read last night and over the next few weeks which are going to be crazy and stressful and emotionally challenging, I'm going to reread it and take a lot of the lessons from it: namely, you can't hide from your problems until things go away, because everything else piles up and it's just easier to deal with shit. This is an important lesson I'm trying to practise, because lord knows I will usually try to run and hide instead of dealing with things.Other things: Novillero is doing a show this Friday at the Graffitti Gallery. Would anybody be interested in going with me? I really don't have the finances to go, but I'm thinking of treating myself for the whole moving forward thing. Also, Novillero. I haven't seen them for a while, and I'm kind of jonesing (things that worry me: doors open at 9 and it goes until like, 2 or something? and I'm helping out at a garage sale that weekend starting friday morning, so I may be exhausted? and i'll have to take cash in case of an emergency cab? and what the hell should I wear? i've never been to the graffiti galler, what's it like? etc. etc. etc.) Why can't I ever relax and just enjoy stuff like this?